I am surprised that I am not the only one... My parents always argue... my dad said i am not his daughter.. after 2x yrs.. my mom suicided in Sept.. coz my dad wants to go back to hk and worry free.. they give birth babies in Canada in their 40's... my young bro and sis are abt 16 yrs younger than me.. until i grow older.. i know why my parents dun like me (my dad thinks i was not his daughter and my mom didnt approve anything).. i was beaten to grow up.. while i am in high school and at U.. my mom always yelled at me.. no matter how good i did.. i do all housework.. starting from washing dishes to raising up my young bro and sis.. i even change diapers.. while at school.. i work 40+ hrs + full time studies + housework.. but my parents still dun like me.. my dad throw things at me when he is pissed at me.. my mom will just keep yelling at me. all day. i need to go home before 6pm if no work.. i hate them yelling at me.. so i go to school early..and work till midnight.. when come home.. all day dishes left for me to wash... laundry.. garbages..etc... i didnt complain.. they yell at my marks.. saying i only play not study..but i was working..not playing.. i gave all my money to my parents when i was at school..lend student loans.. and i am still repaying stu loans now.. they are still not satisfied... i went to UBC hospital when i was at U.. I was classified at urgent patient,,, high tendency of suicide.. but they dun care..after i grad.. things get a bit better.. but now my parent argue all day.. in front of my young bro and sis (one is 9 and one is 7).. argue with knives too.. they acts like drama.. my dad spent money like crazy... no money..borrow money to buy stocks..no money,.. buy a new car.. no money.. go to vacations..
he thinks that he has worked enough.. so he now work around 32 - 40 hrs per week.. not enough money to support a big family (with 4 children) ..that's y he wants to go away.. and left the **** behind.. my mom.. can't live w/o my dad.... my dad wants to leave..trying to find excuse to divorce.. did a blood test of my youngest bro.. luckily the blood test show my young bro is his son.. and i dunno what next.. i hate my family.. but what can I do.. to support or to leave... all i want is a happy family..no argue when i come back home..but this is not easy.. when i see other have good dad and good mom.. i always talk to myself..why my family so ****.. why my life is this harsh.. i always think of suicide..but what keep me living is my bf now.. but i dunno how long can I stand.. |
發表於 2008-12-15 23:03
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