Mr_Right

Hi prickly_rose, it does sound like a lot of things inside you...  Glad you found LYK to channel your emotions/frustrations.  It's indeed tough especially you don't normally share with your friends.  

You're right, and I think you know it, that living a life that is out-of-sync with our heart, eventually drive us insane..  I think all of us.. somehow live like that..  We have learned values, culture, expectation from others..  and we'll live up to it.. yet maybe in our hearts and inside, that's not really you.  

it takes a lot of courage to look beneath the surface, but i encourage you to.  only then, no matter what you choose, you can live an honest life, and free.  You may be in the valley now.. but do know that life always has hills & valleys, so don't stay too long.. keep going, knowing there's always hope!   We can't change the world around us, but we can change our heart.. and when we do... the world somehow changes.

i'm learning all these everyday.... not easy ...