cool down first.. then get some fxxk by your bf. if while u get fxxked, u think of your bf, then stay with your bf. if you think of *him*, then go with *him*.
You are not a 花癡 la...
Just seems like you are not having a lot of confident but the same time you do....
For your current bf, yon can feel the "security" (cuz 不管外形,家底,年齡都比不上), then he would have no reason to leave you. You will do your best to keep this feeling, thats why "我就是那麼死死甘心被他蝦, 他說甚麼我就聽他,跟他走!"
And regarding your "friend", for sure you had been having a lot of fantasy. And you like the feeling that 被那外形不差的富家子死心蹋地地追那種感覺.
If you "輸不起現在的這段關係", just try to let your "friend" go. (It's hard to let go, cuz you haven't actually been with him)
I have to aggree that it is nice to have a fling once in a while...
It is just nice to keep it as part of your memory only... especailly you know that you love your current bf... you don't wanna loose him, right?