how do you make more friends?
as a kid, i had bad experience in friendship in my childhood (well, ok, teenage-hood)... all those got betrayed by your best friend crap. took me quite a few years to get out of that, but now that i'm out of it i'm extra cautious making new friends and keeping friendship. i have hi-bye friends and work friends, but not many that goes too deep.
that's why my bf is everything to me in the past 8 years. and that's why when are relationship is failing i can't pull myself out but can only cry to myself day and night.
when we have problems i don't talk to people about it because my bf has "trained" me not to. few years back whenever we have a fight i'd talk to my close friends about it, and that really bothered him so i stopped doing it. now i don't know how to go back to doing it again. all this pain is building up inside me and i have nowhere to go.
i want to find new friends and get myself out of this horrible mess... i want to build a new social life so that he wont be my everything anymore. doesn't mean that i have to leave him, at least he wont be the main focus in my life.
and also, no new friends = no chances of meeting another guys and starting new relationships. i just simply can't leave.
what to do.. what to do... what to do...
(yes i know i sound very self-focused in this post but it's only because this post is about "my" problem, so please don't bash me on that... i've seen a few people being bashed about this already lol) |
匿名 發表於 2009-6-25 16:26
