here and there all over the place
talking non-stop in every single ways
they name the proletariat and bourgeois
they read the Marxist and interpellate ideology
they name hegemony and it's getting too deep
the signifier signifies a sign
they said language externalizes meaning
meaning being what's been internalized
is there any significance in signifying
is there a ruling class that is too challenging
it does give them a hope
a future to be corrected
as one professor said:
sexual energy to be harnessed
that phrase pretty much explains it
non-stop theories with no boundaries
already told them that i am chinese
they better acknowledge it when acknowledging me
which they don't and they can't
i know i know i am losing my cultural identity
most of them cannot read me
i will have to read them relatively
it has to be a legitimate cult being in universality
i meant to declare my cultural boundary
我的英语还是实验性质耶多多包涵
my self esteem is relatively low
been bombarded by all these English speaking people lately
i know sth that they don't and i cannot put it in words ... not in English
my literacy level in spoken English ... hm ... trying to match up with ... around junior high but not even ... there is sth in my root that cannot be changed ... all the basics i learned in my childhood
worse come to worst, i am going back to grade one if necessary
in fact i do have my grade 6 Complete EnglishSmart textbook
by Popular Book Company (Canada) Limited Copyright 2007
Karl Marx
Fredrick Engels
Louis Althusser
Roland Barthes
Jacques Lacan
Julia Kristeva
Simone De Beauvoir
Donna Haraway
Edwaid Said
Gayatri Chakravorti Spivak
Michel Foucault
Gerald Vizenor
Trinh T. Min-ha
and Judith Butler