只係想發洩… 男人, 真相, 愛情

Sakura

尋日我同一個我從未認識o既人傾偈，但係佢同我有一個共通點：
就係我o地都俾同一個男人呃過。
我亦發現o左一D我從來都唔知o既真相，一D我以前懷疑但係都選擇相信o既無楷理由。
可能我唔應該信一個我唔認識o既人o既片面之詞，但係假如我真係相錯o左…
咁怪就只能夠怪佢講o既大話多到我寧願信一個我唔認識o既人。

雖然我同佢已經成為過去2年有多啦，但係當我知道事實o既時候，我依然好唔開心…
我覺得自己好愚蠢…我身邊每個人都警告過我…
但係原來愛情真係可以令人變得好盲目。
所有o野都係我自己咎由自取

一幅一幅o既畫面從我腦海裡面再次浮現…
因為佢，我同Daddy，同表姐鬧交，落大雪要o係電話亭講電話，
收到第一份禮物，第一隻戒指，o係機場大家攬住痛哭，
我o係佢o架車度喊完佢返o黎攬住我安慰返我，講電話講通宵…
我真o係好難相信呢D情景全部都係假o既…

但係我再回想，就見到第二D畫面…
10次佢話會過o黎裡面，有8次都佢唔會出現。
仲係冇通知o既，即係失蹤，但係最後俾我發現佢一路都o係多倫多。
10次佢話寄禮物過o黎，有8次都話「唔知點解，可能寄失o左。」
當我喊o既時候，佢可以收線唔理我，亦可以停車丟底我。
聖誕節佢應承同我一齊過，結果因為第2個女仔，
佢淩晨5點o係一個我唔熟識o既多倫多某一條街度丟底我。
我最最最最記得o既係，我試過打俾佢，有個女仔聽電話。
佢話：「佢o係廁所，你邊位搵佢？」我話我係佢女朋友…
個女仔話：「我先係佢女朋友喎！你邊位呀？！」佢事後道歉，話同佢已經分o左手。
2個月後，我依然聽到呢個女仔把聲，佢話佢男朋友去o左廁所。
o個日係我o地最後一日做情侶。

分手後，試過淩晨3點飲醉酒打俾我，話好愛我，好掛住我，叫我唔好唔理佢。
佢話而家個女朋友唔好，冇我咁好，而家先知邊個對佢最好，好想要返我。
我心軟，最後應承o左只會同佢做返朋友，但係佢以後唔可以再呃我。
尋晚，我發現原來佢打俾我o個晚，佢當時已經有4個女朋友。
其實我想喊，但係真係喊唔出…我發覺，原來我對呢個人流o既眼淚，已經流乾了。
我發現，一個我拍o左拖6年，以為自己好了解o既人…
原來，我一D都唔認識佢…

原來真係有人做戲可以做得咁澈底，佢應該可以去拎奧斯卡。
不過，紙係包唔住火o架。講一個大話去襟另外一個大話，到最後始終都會被揭穿。
今日，9年後，終於真相大白。

但係我發現我已經唔可以再相信任何人…
包括我自己男朋友，即使佢鍾意o左我5年…
無論我幾想信佢，幾覺得自己刁蠻任性唔成熟…
我都依然會質問佢做o既o野同去o既地方…

我好討厭咁樣o既自己…

[ 本帖最後由 Sakura 於 2008-9-29 20:11 編輯 ]

Caffie

I think you should block him too...

GAClone

just block him ;)

people like him just want/like the attention. and if u reply him, then he'll feel more confident and u'll just boost his ego. besides, people like him (since he's a player) are generally over-confident to begin with

Sakura

He offline msged me on MSN~
I didn't bother to block him, but I just ignore him~
It's funi tho to c how he still wants to turn the table around even tho he's alreadi indirectly admitted that he is a player..~

I just dun get ppl like him...
Wut he does doesn't even make sense...maybe onli to him...

GAClone

text or msn? if text then u better delete it!

Sakura

原帖由 Hyde 於 2008/10/6 10:59 PM 發表
why do u still talk to him?

I didn't~
He just msged me~

Hyde

why do u still talk to him?

creamy

原帖由 Sakura 於 2008-9-29 21:25 發表
Well..I dun even like him anymore..
But it's just that when I found out last nite..
I still got so upset cuz I felt like I've been lied to even more..
When it shouldn't even matter anymore..

He calle ...

He lied to you over and over and he has the guts to talk to you about respect? Is he even a man? I'm glad it's over, you can do so much better!

Sakura

佢今日msg我, send o左同我傾偈o個個女仔個blog俾我睇。
然之後話："長話短說﹐ 自己看啦﹐若要人不知，除非己莫為﹐呢個話你還未有資格去講﹐因為佢自己也是同一種人。"

我覺得就算個女仔係咩人都唔關我事，而家講緊係佢係咩人。
同我有冇資格話佢根本就係兩回事。
佢俾個女仔個blog我睇對我根本冇作用…
兜唔到，lor唔到彩仲要間接承認自己做過。
我覺得好白痴。

Sakura

I will try harder I guess..I will have to..~
If I want to keep him..~

I think all the bad people will karma...