Blue

i guess it does make me sound like a cry baby..
but after 22 yrs of suppression, i guess its only fair for me to act like that when i cant take it anymore..

i've been working since im 16.. when everyone is just going to school, im working my ass off.
once i got into uni, i had to work full time sometimes and go to school fulltime..
at some point, i know im just gonna collapse not emotionally, but physically.
but nth to complain, b/c im just not as lucky as other ppl..
my father abandoned us and my mom is giving money to my older bro, but not me.
not that i wanted money, but all i want is someone not stealing money from me.

no one understands my pressure from school and work.. and also from my family.
i hafta make so much money to survive and at the same time i lose alot of time for school.
everyday the hours i sleep is like 4-5 hours. maybe its a lot to some ppl..
but its quite tiring for me as it went on for 5 years already..
i guess im just not as tough as other ppl.. but physically im worn out.
when problems happen, im always on the losing side b/c im born as a girl.
i was born as a jinx, yet my bro is born as a king.
i understand that complaining does me no good so i worked like i nv worked b4.
they wont get it b/c they nv been to uni and they dun get the pressure from school
they dun get the pressure from work cuz they dont really work either..
as i explain to them that i feel like passing out sometimes they just claim im lazy as hell.

like Lik said its life.. i agree..
but all i wish is sometimes they could care about me as a human being
i just hope that as my family i will get some support
i just thought that after so long i nv asked them for a favor, and here's one.

of cuz my bro can give me ****..the whole family supports him..
he beat the crap outta me and i wanted to call the cops and my mom begs me not to.
they saw him strangling me with cable and drag me on the floor..
i got beat and threatened and i run away from home and mom calls me a brat..

thats y i treasure the chances of me meeting my frds.. they r the world to me.
honestly. when i ran away from home. i only had very lil money on me
i was sitting on the street crying, didnt know where to go..
if i go back home, i will get hurt. if i leave canada and go back to hk, i wont haf a place to stay
b/c my dad is fully paralyzed already and was in coma..
my frd came n picked me up from the street and helped me..
they let me stay with them, they helped me with money issue..
i thot my mom would help me but at the end all i get is that im a brat for being beat up..
so i really dont think my family is that reliable.. or unconditionally bail me out when i'm in need..

i know its not a big deal to most ppl b/c its only my birthday..
but combined with all the stress i get and that triggers me to cry is just not that abnormal..
but wutever.. i just wanted to vent

Blue

原帖由 SAZABI 於 2008-3-21 14:55 發表
yeah, if he beats you up, it is not right.  You can even call the police LOL, or find some friends to beat him up.

Anyways, why not have your birthday party somewhere else?

cuz most ppl live close to me, so i thot it'd be a good location.
i could take it to richmond or elsewhere, but it's more difficult for them.

but its alright. i guess i just split my day with the different groups.

akshea

You need a boy friend. Get him beat the crap outta ur brother and then u can move out and stay /w your bf for free.. =)

puZZle

原帖由 akshea 於 2008-3-21 17:49 發表
You need a boy friend. Get him beat the crap outta ur brother and then u can move out and stay /w your bf for free.. =)

LYK military unit is always ready too haha

Ultraman

To escape is always seem the easiest and simplest way to do in the first place. Yet, if I were you, Blue, I would ask: why all these happen on me like that? Why my mom (seems like) loves my brother more than me (provided that both of you are flowing the same blood)? Why my bro treats me like that but not as normal brother-sisterly love as others do? Is that all my fault, then what did I do to make them so mad at me? Or it's their problem that I don't understand? If you can't find out the answers today probably all the questions would become forever mystery for the rest of your life!

Yep, you can just move out this crap and live by yourself or with some friends. Would you be really happy with that? But when more and more friends leave you, eventually you'll feel lonely. Cuz motherly and brotherly love can't be replaced by friends! All you need is your mother and brother's love! Go find out the reason behind. It's not only about one birthday party, it's about your whole life!

matt72178

Ultraman,
有時有D 野真係無得解釋。
我D 屋企人都係好憎我﹐我自問真係無乜對拒地唔住﹐我仲係有求必應﹐做到一定做。一家人嘛﹐無所謂啦。
反而我呀妹呢﹐我老豆老母叫拒做野﹐仲俾我呀妹吊返轉頭。但係好奇怪窩。。我老豆老母會對拒虛寒問暖窩。你話奇唔奇?
可能呢D 就係所謂既" 樣既問題 " 掛。
但係﹐真的﹐人善被人欺係一D 都無錯。

Ultraman

Yes, I agree 有時有D 野真係無得解釋. But 或者係 favoritism, 又或者係重男輕女, 又或者係XXX...... . That mean we are only guessing (including Blue herself)! My point is, go find out the clear answer before to make any unsure, more hurtful, misunderstanding move lor! That only makes things worse and more miscommunicated. If the true answer is "favoritism" or "重男輕女", at least you know there is something unlikely to be changed. But how if there are some other possibly solvable reasons behind? Would you regret?