After I heard my friend suicides and I never felt the same about death anymore. Sometimes I still found the msn or email backup and just cannot believe that person is already dead.
I was attending a conference Downtown,
my best friend Nick's wife called and said he want to see me the last time.
I rushed to Simon Fraser in 25 minute,
talked to him for 15 minutes, then, he died right in front of me,
at his 48 YO. Please tell me what you feel if you were in my shoes.
A friend of 28 years!
I was reading a Buddhist comic (not able to read the read books yet) and it talked about taking change as the norm.... and try to see changing and good things leaving us as expected... but it's just hard....
Death, is a "bug" in computer geek's point of view. Provided that u believed that we are some sort of "product" or robot, our bodies are the hardware and our "soul" is software