he he thanks for all your support
as in right now i am on academic probation
mainly due to that course full of marxism
[& me rejecting their materials]
i suppose it took me months of reading to get to the point in which i actually interpreted the stabbing motions in that video into sth bad. as in homicidal/manslaughter kind of suggestion [with all the Marxism in my brain at the moment I was watching it]
i prefer to live in reality in which no one is entitled to harm any individual nor induce any bodily ... harm. and when a person [in a video broadcasted in a lecture hall] was swinging a knife in stabbing gestures with an unidentifiable facial expression as opposed to many of our chinese martial artists professionally handling all kinds of weapons with faces & bodies full of grace ...
but that i kind of expressed already in my school's moodle site but not quite to the face of my prof & my TA. they might have more right than i am in that manner with regard to their 'teaching' position plus i paid them to teach me in a way so. for me in reality i do not need another movie or video game to give me a portal to unfold my potentials nor possibilities as in where [else] should i be in this world [exclusively for living out my fantasy i rely on myself & me only to think of what is otherwise impossible to be done] [and I am saying that only for those who choose to live in virtual reality & separate yourself into an out-of-the-mind person] [a person not welcomed in real so to speak]
maybe this is where i draw the line. i've been, and was able to, living in that fantasy world for a long long time to [be able to] see if there is a tiny bit of [error] as in making a suggestion to another human of wrong [from right] that being said only under circumstances when an individual's life is threatened or with substantial concern of his/her safety or under the threat to be raped as in women's case [or men included] should one draw a weapon for self-protection purpose imo
[again these thoughts were all in response to my class material to balance out my brain] that together with my other classmates who saw that artist swinging the knife as a joke. mainly because they are 心志未成熟 and so am I 尤其係我, 應該咁講 when I opened up to learn. but hey thanks ya'll for all your responses. it helps.
as in the field of art, there are many others conceptual/performance artist eg chris burden who does things with physical bodies [not that i will recommend for any of you] & there is an artist from mainland china who allegedly used human fetus in his art [and FBI was after his s in 2001] the art world has a wide opened ... unlimited ... really broad ... space if you need it. but as an artist / student [so called if necessary][self proclaimed] with some art education [mostly forgotten] i would recommend nothing for nobody to try as new. not sure if my words mean anything at all but i see you guys as the 局外人 [compared to me as the 當事人] and i am not going to appeal for my grades due to ... my brain situation ... rather get some icecream etc by all means i do [try to] respect all schools of thoughts as in the same as our hundred schools of thoughts 諸子百家 too bad my brain seems a bit congested if not in chaos. already. TTYL
and not sure if by me splitting my brain apart into all these fragments is any healthy but that seems necessary. i just needed to know but obviously i don't. crossing my finger everything turns out alright at the end for everyone esp me |
發表於 2012-4-18 20:01
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